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pioneeringWriter9271
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PathStep 14 Compassion hearts70 Forum posts16 Forum upvotes15 Current upvotes15 Age GroupAdult Last activeMarch, 2025 Member sinceAugust 12, 2017
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Future teacher and hobbyist musician


rules say don’t give advice. Last person I met that could relate to me died a year ago. I don’t want your advice. I’ve been following the advice of others for decades and it’s gotten me nowhere. I’d be dead if I had listened to my “big brother” in elementary school on how to deal with bullies.


What little I’ve got I earned on my own motivated by anger and spite according to licensed therapists. You won’t be the beacon of light you think you are.


people rarely care nearly as much as they admit and that’s okay, but you don’t need to bring that energy around me. Just move on. I have ptsd, anxiety, and depression. I will get myself permabanned from here like I did Reddit to make a point if necessary.

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Stereotypes don’t help
Anxiety Support / by pioneeringWriter9271
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 5 hours ago
...See more I’ve got a listener who tells me I need to be more open and go outside. Do you people really think every guy struggling with a relationship is at home all day? They were not at the gym ir store? That we aren’t getting dressed up so we can run off in a panic attack? Who’s doing our shopping for us? ever think maybe we go to the movies alone? Go to Starbucks alone? The library alone? That we do try to break out of our comfort zones for absolutely nothing to happen so we say “*** it” because if we wanted to be miserable, lonely, and have no *** friends we could do that at home? Clearly not. just like how we don’t speak English and we can read your minds. Stupid *** like this is why I can’t make a Reddit account at all and I fully see myself getting fully banned here too if that’s how you people view anxiety. out here wanting some John wick *** without thinking how it’s gonna impact someone’s adrenaline or put them on edge. Not giving a *** about anyone but yourself but wondering why guys like me don’t just open up to you. What happens when we do though? You minimize that ***. I become completely wrong. I become some perpetual and professional victim. and most the time you don’t even *** know what you want anyway. Sit here and tell people to shoot for friendships then get mad they wanted in your pants. Try to make *** as hard and awkward as *** then wonder why people who’ve been isolated due to all the drug addicts and felons they grew up with dying or disappearing don’t want *** from you. I was thinking about leaving my house again in futility, but *** it. I’m not doing ***. I’ll keep not doing *** and getting banned from every internet platform possible because people think it’s a *** joke outliving everyone you grew up with before you’re *** 40, and women who don’t look your way at all are supposedly flocking over you because all they want is a nice guy. Nah. They don’t know what the *** they want. You can be nice, quiet, shy, dress nice, and get *** nowhere because they don’t treat you like a *** human, and then blame you anyway. *** this
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Struggling in public places and forming relationships
Anxiety Support / by pioneeringWriter9271
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 21 hours ago
...See more I was diagnosed with anxiety due to PTSD a few years ago, and it’s really the only symptom of PTSD that concerns doctors. Even at my worst they focused on my anxiety far more than my depression. It makes sense: everyone I know is dead or a violent or victim-based felon. I can’t find anyone else to talk to either. It’s become a huge problem where the last person I tried to date was a prostitute. The signs were there, but she was so nice to me. She appreciated the little things I did for her, and she had fun stories. I now know why she was so adamant to stay away from the cops, but nonetheless. I hadn’t been comfortable around someone like her, and especially a woman in a very long time. Sadly, our whole thing fizzled out after a week cause that’s not my thing. My grades in college are fine, and I’m maintaining a job finally. However, I have no life at all. No friends to call when things are tough. There are a few listeners on here, and I’m grateful for them, but they’re listeners. Our interactions stay on this app, and there’s only so much they can do. Again, absolutely grateful. I’ve filled out the appreciation form. but long term this is a wall I can’t get past. Settling with someone I’m not attracted to because of politics or mental illness is wrong, but at the same time I feel like I ruined a shot with someone who seemed to like me. The last person who has in a long time. I’m at a point where shopping in public, let alone approaching someone blindly is absolutely nerve wracking. OTOH, since I have no life at all dating apps don’t work well. They magnify the void that is my existence further pushing away potential partners I could possibly lie to about having a life in person. working on myself isn’t helping anything either. It doesn’t make me more confident to talk to anyone. It just gives me an escape from the world and everyone. Until i get yet another reminder of how lonely i am. Then I get banned from platforms like Reddit for complaining about how advice I get doesn’t help, and it only gets worse. this sucks. I don’t want to live.
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Hi everyone
Trauma Support / by pioneeringWriter9271
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 Friday
...See more Hi, I’m Joe. I don’t remember my username. I’ve been clinically diagnosed with ptsd for a few years along with anxiety and depression. I’ve almost finally graduated with a BSc in general studies. It’s been a long road getting here. I'm trying to work on making friends and connecting with people because it’s been very hard since my friend Mike died. He made the world seem a lot less lonely because he could relate to me. He’d want me to keep working on myself, making friends, and make a career for myself. RIP Mike.
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Struggling to find help
Trauma Support / by pioneeringWriter9271
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 5 hours ago
...See more I was diagnosed with PTSD a few years ago. It’s honestly all over the place, and difficult to summarize. Since getting the diagnosis I’ve had several therapists in several clinics. I haven’t gotten too far, and I don’t really have a support system: friends, family, anyone I can talk to. At best they nod, and more commonly the interest isn’t even there at a surface level. Two therapists have told me to move, but I can’t afford it. It really sucks because my biggest issue is social anxiety. I’m not introverted at all. I like meeting new people and I don’t need downtime like an introvert. But it’s a huge problem for me. I can’t quit my job because I’ve got bills to pay, and I can’t really afford therapy. Especially EMDR, DBT, and Medically Assisted stuff like therapists have suggested. Anyone out there who can relate or any ideas?
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