Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav
s2warmheartedapple3
2 255 M Embraced 2
PathStep 1 Compassion hearts16 Forum posts2 Forum upvotes2 Current upvotes2 Age GroupAdult Last activeMarch, 2025 Member sinceFebruary 28, 2025
Bio
Recent forum posts
s2warmheartedapple3 profile picture
Pls help I can't take it anymore without going insane
Trauma Support / by s2warmheartedapple3
Last post
 March 2nd
...See more TW: SA, sui5id3, 4nxi3ty, mental 4bus3 I'm F18 and year by year I've been struggling even more with my mental health due to trauma. When I was 7 and my half brother 6 we were sa'ed by a teenager cousin. My relationships w my parents is nothing but me acting always like a daughter who gives no problems only make them proud while they always cared more about his friends and themselves rather than me(they're not together since I was 9 btw.) I live with mom and I have no conditions to live alone rn, and she doesn't even let me go out for a couple hours to talk with friends without freaking everyone out texting with no reason that is scared about where am I or if I am OK even w me sending pictures of where I am, even though when she's home never cared much abt me. Dad almost abandoned me, only comes pick me up like 8 times a year lol and acts like the most caring person w me like he never had disappeared when I most needed. Both of them dealt with depression when I was a kid, so I have to act like an adult a lot while I was just a kid. And an insane part abt my story is that one day when I was a kid, dad saw me my brother and my cousin almost kissing, just looked distressed and then proceed to close the door like he saw anything. I've been most part of my life seeing myself as a monster for being induced by my teenage cousin on the time to do those things with him and my brother, only at 17 I came to realise I was just a kid going through ***. Best part of my life was school bc at home only my grandma and uncles would talk and play with me and they had a lot of chores to do and also suffered some kind of domestic mental 4bus3(treated and talked bad by my grandpa). I still live in this same traumatic environment and I almost committed last year if it wasn't for someone of my family noticing that I wasn't ok and talking to me without judgement. I fear telling things to my parents because mom makes everything about her and dad just looks like he's pretending to give a shi abt me. I trust no one and Ive never told this to no one, I just need help so much bc since I was a child I will be just crying till I sleep and having anxiety attacks.
Search more from @s2warmheartedapple3
Community updates
Talk to an expert therapist
Sincere long-form responses , questions are almost like homework but not...
Reviewed Jan 18, 2025
Talk to Jessica Now
Badges & Awards
8 total badges
Hand Shake Linked Chief Chat First Post Reaching out First Compassion Newbie Teammate
Report an issue