Hard to stop certain urges..
Idk how to explain it without it coming off weird.. My counselor says it's a form of self sabotage and might stem from past childhood trauma or something but idk why I enjoy the risk and thought of someone wanting the worst for me.. I've been having the urge to give my passwords and personal information like pictures of my credit cards and stuff.. I know it's not the best thing to do but idk why I continue to have the urge to do so.. My counselor says to avoid it but it's hard at times.. Sorry I'm sure it all comes off weird.. Idk why I enjoy the risk of it all so much..sorry for such a long post
@diplomaticZebra9364
don't worry, none of this comes off as weird. you're in a safe judgment-free space. <3
I'm so sorry for your experience. Maybe your counselor's Right. Did you experience any trauma in past? Any Physical or verbal abuse perhaps? I've been somewhat there before and used to cut myself etc... telling myself that I deserve it. But you know what? I didn't deserve any of it. And neither do you. You're so special. You've done nothing wrong. You deserve all the happiness of life. May I ask if you're in some sort of guilt? If yes then let it go. Whenever you get such urges, Watch a funny video... Or stand up comedies( always works for my peers and me...) or anything that you love. Maybe take up a new hobby like music or painting?
