regrets.
ughh. back in my old roleplay server from high school, i gave ownership up to one of my mods who was younger than i cause i felt like i got too old to be running it anymore (im 18, i made the server when i was 17/freshly 18, and left when i graduated) and i just feel horrible. i didn't realize that *** servers required so much attention and i hope i didn't cause them too much stress (i checked in recently after the server was inactive and they said they never were stressed but yknow)
i just worry and i hate that i made that dumb mistake. in the mod application they gave a age range of 13 - 15 and since the other mods were 15/16/17, i thought it was fine since everyone would work together. plus they ran their own server before and my other moderator was friends with them. but nope!
im pretty sure theyre 15 though thank god. their account is from 2022 and we've both talked about high school.
whenever big situations came up like adults being weird i dealt with it myself because i didnt want anyone else to. i then told them im not comfortable with them running the server by themselves nor being owner. we agreed on it and the server is being run by a close friend of mine who i trust immensely.
i feel like a monster. my moral ocd is always finding ways to try to make me feel like someone who hurts others.
You’re not a monster. The fact that you care so deeply about the well-being of your mods and community shows you have a lot of empathy. Mistakes, especially ones that involve others, can be tough to come to terms with, but they don’t define who you are. What matters is how you respond to them, and you’ve already shown responsibility and care by checking in and making sure the server is in good hands.
