Self-esteem self worth

I have been dealing with self worth esteem issues since I was young. I am 29 years old almost 30 and I feel like I dont worth a ***. My self esteem comes from external factors which is the problem. I always compare myself and have high expectations from myself. I always beat myself up for not being where I should be.

it became more intense since the job market got trashy. I cant seem to find a job that pays well and I know Im not alone but its eating me out from inside.. and I feel like I will never get the job..I got a masters degree in Information Science amd have a bit of background but I dont know what it is its just a constant rejection from get go.. I applied more than hundreds applications not to lie if I say its more than 500..

I moved my home from another country to have a future but it seems like this better future and American Dream has been dead for a decade and I had no idea… I am so hopeless

anyone feeling the same? :)