off my chest #1

Idk what this is really (other than social anxiety) but like one of my old special needs school friends added me on ***, all they DM'd me was some kind of hideous 3D avatar thing smiling (I dont use *** much Idk what that means), Im a bit concerned, are they taking the ***?

I may claim to be introspective and *** yet I'm so non self-aware. 

Past incidents of emotional dysregulation are just beyond the standard definition of upsetting.

Im struggling to decide where to get the bus to to smoke, ideally as close to home as possible so by the time I get home Ill still be high enough to read r/morbidquestions or smth. But i want to be stoned in Seaham because I like Seaham even though its a bigger distance.

Im the king of downvoting downvote me into oblivion your highness 👑

*** I take pride in = having an enquiring mind, "overthinking", being autistic, coming up with fake  scenarios, cringing at how based other peoples vocabulary etc can be, 
*** I take shame in = oversharing, needing therapy, caring what others think, "lashing out" (more so than all the others), kind of to a lesser extent vaguely Giving a *** about aesthetics, crying because someone else seems more [the way I would like to be] than I am, extremely impulsive careless self-neglectful behaviour
ambivalent = obsessing over typology labels (although more the bottom than the top), identifying with Snufkin