Reaching out for help.

I'm 30yrs old, gender fluid, & I prefer them/they pronouns.

I feel extremely embarrassed to put myself out here like this, but I don't know what else to do, hopefully nobody makes fun of me, or puts me down because of my situation.

My life is in shambles at the moment. I'm struggling very badly, & I'm wondering if anyone can help me out? Anything will help. I suffer from severe mental health issues (I've been diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses, if you message me directly, I will go into greater detail), which has affected my ability to work. I cannot function when faced with the everyday stressors that normal people encounter. I have been hospitalized multiple times for my mental health issues (I have proof of this), I am on a number of medications, & I will be starting Electroconvulsive Therapy (ECT) in the next week or two. 

I also have some medical issues that I deal with, which includes a heart condition.

I have filed for disability, & gotten a lawyer. My hearing is two months away. I've been struggling to get by, & I clean houses to make money when I can get business, & my mental health will allow it.

Some of the medications (and some procedures) that I'm on are not being covered by my insurance for whatever reason. I have made call after call trying to figure out the issue pertaining to my insurance, & why I'm having to pay out of pocket for some of this stuff. One of the medications they aren't covering now (they covered it before, only to turn around, & start making me pay out of pocket) is my heart medication. I really need this medicine, I spent an entire year in & out of the hospital because of my heart condition. I dealt with syncope, as well as other problems before I got on my heart medication. I often found myself bedridden for days at a time, hardly able to move.

Another medicine that they're refusing to pay for (I've submitted an appeal for all of these things) is my injection I get monthly, this helps me manage my depression.

If someone could please help me out, I'd appreciate it more than you'd ever know. I don't have anyone else to turn to for help. Again, hopefully I don't get laughed at, or called pathetic for this.

Edit.

I added proof, I have $0.83 to my name.

$BlackHeartSoCold