Struggling to meet expectations from family

As an autistic adult suffering from severe depression stemming from a lack of patience from the people in my family, I see myself as better off living in an autism-friendly special needs accommodation where I will have the mental health support I need and will receive help in navigating through life whilst managing my condition. I shouldn't have to continue living in a toxic family household within a toxic environment that is not even considered autism-friendly, all I've done is spend all day treading on eggshells around my parents ESPECIALLY my dad - no wonder I'm severely depressed and find myself becoming bitter towards others.