Life is Crushing
I need to get my head right. Filled with so much stress, anxiety, and depression which leads to over thinking, guilt, shame which then results in overeating, withdrawing, and lashing out. I have a newborn, a marriage with no connection on any level, a soul killing job, friends that apparently aren’t friends, family that doesn’t understand or has earned trust yo be involved, and so much more. I feel like life is crushing me and I’m so intensely filled with emotions and thoughts about how my life had so much potential and I used to be filled with so much life and vibrancy. I loved philosophy, played guitar and graduated from a prestigious music college, was a go yo person for so many, was in shape, confident and loved life. Now I’m unhealthy, miserable, can’t get out of my way and so stuck. I can’t breath or think or focus or anything under the crushing weight of it all.
I am so sorry you have been struggling. First of all, have you spoken to your OB/GYN? Post-partum depression is a bear and you could really be suffering from it. They can help you figure out a way through. Remember your body is readjusting to all sorts of weird waves of hormones that are suddenly not there. You can find your way back to happiness by recognizing that none of this is your fault.
Feel free to send messages and vent here any time that you want. I am very willing to listen. I usually send a message back within 24 hours. @aquaEast5833