I have depression and I don't know why.
My name is Abigail, you can call me Abby. I struggle with severe depression, and I've had it for over a year now.
I don't know why I have depression. My life is great. I have amazing parents, an amazing dog, I'm financially stable, I have a best friend that treats me great, I have straight A's in school.
And yet, I still feel depressed. I feel empty, worthless, angry, suicidal. The whole shabang. And it makes me feel horrible, because I know so many people have it a million times worse than me.
I feel like I'm not supposed to ever feel negative emotions. I feel like someone with a life as good as mine should be happy all the time.
But I'm not. And I don't know why.
Has anyone ever explained to you what depression is? It is a physical imbalance of chemicals in your brain. That can happen to anyone no matter how "great" their life is. You aren't doing anything wrong.
But it sounds like it is time to call on the resources that you have for some help. Are you seeing a doctor or a therapist? It can take a bit of time, but those people can really help you find a better balance. And you do deserve it.
If you ever want to vent here, please feel free. No judgment. @AbigailMadden
@bestVase7265 I don't have a doctor, haven't been to one since I was 6 years old lol. And I don't have a therapist, because I would have to tell my parents about everything that's going on, and I don't want to tell them. I'm also too anxious to get on one of those suicide hotlines, so that crosses off that option. It IS nice to be able to vent on here though