Feeling Insecure
My looks have changed!!! I’m overweight and have no motivation my hair fell out due to alpecea from medication changes and bleaching it!!!! I feel alone!!! When I come across the population where I live or go in the sun nobody wants to look at me, people avoid me, I make them nervous, they stare at me laugh at me and criticize me, scorn me!!!!!! I wear wigs to help with my insecurities!!!! But sometimes it just don’t help!!! I use hair shadow that makes it worse I use hair fiber that gets all over the place and makes it look like I just colored my scalp!!!! I’m depressed and I just got a new job working with children with Autism and other mental health issues or disabilities I got hired working for the school district that pays well!!!! I’m afraid they won’t like me!!!!!
I can imagine that all of that physical stuff is weighing on you. I have severe scoliosis and have always worried about what people say in the back of their minds. But I think a lot of the time they don't see it after a while because I win them over by being kind. I bet you will do the same thing in your new job.
But that doesn't make it easy for the time being. Sending lots of strength and peace.
Feel free to respond here any time if you have a frustrating day. I will send a message back within 24 hours. @crimsonPenguin2489